I always feared loosing my mum.I think the thought of it was harder than the reality sometimes. I was so blessed to have a special relationship with her not everyone gets that and I have to tell myself that everyday. When she left in April she wasn’t ready and it wasn’t meant to be or was it!? I didn’t want her to go feeling scared for me and how I would feel, but I know she would have.I never imagined I could do life without her but I am, I have found this calm that I never knew I had. Like being under a spell. But I keep thinking at some point this will break and I will break and I feel like I’m just going through motions. I have a wonderful husband and 2 very special step children I am blessed again. I spend everyday trying to be the me they know, but inside I feel like I’m not me without her.
Hi @Hersweetpea,
I’m so sorry for the loss of your mum. Thank you so much for sharing this with the community You express yourself really beautifully.
I just wanted you to know that you’ve been heard, and I hope you find comfort and support here. You’re not alone.
Take good care,
Seaneen
I wish you the best. it is the hardest loss, mothers.
my life changed so much … as I am no longer someone’s child.
a long adjustment. losing mom’s protective force is quite hard.
4 months later….
The feelings that come with knowing she isn’t coming back are more real than ever . It’s like everyday is just another day now and no matter what that day brings the only thing I actually feel is longing for her to be there infront of me. Because this can’t be the rest of my life. Just me without her.
So very sorry for your loss. I lost my mum nearly 2 weeks ago. Time stretching into the future without her is what I dread. Especially when things return to a kind of normal after the funeral and those around me expect me to have moved on. How can I? I feel I will just be going through the motions of life.