It was something Esther Rantzen said that struck me as so true and it had not really occurred to me. She said that she did not want people to see her suffering before she died because their first memory of her will be of her suffering and not the earlier good times. I find it hard to get passed thinking of her last 18 months in order to remember the previous 55 years. Do others feel the same as me?
Writing this is very difficult because you can guess of what I am thinking.

Hiya @Hopefully
I’m so sorry for your loss
Unfortunately I’m also fixated on the final 12 months of my mam’s passing, but have been told that in time the happy memories will replace the bad ones. I guess we just have go with it, but its a hard journey
Hope this gives you just a little comfort :heart:
Take care