I was in Benidorm for someone’s 60th . I spoke to him that morning and told him I loved him at 720 and by 1 he had suddenly collapsed and died in our bedroom. They couldn’t save him with cardiac tamponade and a myocardial infarction . My world ended when I got that phone call . We were such a close couple . I was a widow at 55 and his funeral was six days before my 56 . It’s such a sad thing for everyone who has lost their partners
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Yes i am sure you have… im just saying how it was for me … But at end of the day grief is grief in my opinion … no matter how it happened - theres no good ending is there 
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I fully agree with Deb - grief is the loss of that person. When you get home and they’re not there, wake up and their side of bed is empty, how are you going to manage life without that person
We all have experienced trauma - not being able to say goodbye Vs being able to say goodbye is a double edged sword and is a trade off
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My OH was 69 on the Sunday, the following Saturday I sat and watched him have his heart attack, he had said he didn’t feel well and was sweating profusely, he refused twice to let me call an ambulance. I took his blood pressure and it was really high. I called 111 and the asked to speak to him. Typically he underplayed it and I was waiting to get a call back. They didn’t get back for two hours by which time the paramedics and air ambulance team were here. They managed to revive him but to much damage had been caused. He died a week later having been in ICU, I had to call time as they said he had no chance of recovery. They stopped treatment on the Friday and it was awful watching him struggling, it took over 24 hours before he was finally at peace. I will never stop asking myself if I had ignored him and called an ambulance if he would have been saved. The family have all said that he hated hospitals and would have refused to go but if they had been here when he had the heart attack would there have been a different outcome. I will never know the answer to that question and it haunts me all the time. What if?
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Yeh you do really worry about the decisions you made dont you … what if … but i think now that it was their decision too , not just ours … we cared and loved them as much as we could … but its so damn hard isnt it ? Sending you big hugs xx
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@Deb5 @Annde our men were too stubborn it’s not our faults . We asked him repeatedly to go drs with a headache he had for 3 months . They may have picked something up . Heart disease ran in his family but he wouldn’t have his cholesterol checked . So you are not alone Annde and so please don’t beat yourself up xx
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@Sarlyn i think I understand the type of “ medical advancement “ you allude to . I believe this type of advancement hastened the death of my beloved Baz . He was never “ right “ after having a preventative treatment for a virus that appeared in 2020 . 
@Sarlyn do you mean the jab ? I’ve always had my suspicions that this jab hastened the death of my beloved Baz . He was never right after one of these and although it was nothing specific, we both worried and he didn’t have another one . This has been speculated so many times in the media , but nobody has got anywhere by way of proof or even a causal link 
@Sarlyn i once opened a thread on this topic and it caused quite a stir . I have always believed that the jab hastened Baz’ death . Given he was perfectly healthy beforehand it did make me wonder.
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I understand you and can totally relate I miss the compassion the laughter companion ship and late night cuddles in bed and morning cups of tea in bed life is so cruel my fiancé was only 51 and we would have been engaged 2 years today when he proposed on a stage he was DJ so so sad 
but I know I have to carry on so I’m meeting like minded folk for food and chat today I’m gonna give them a little guidance even though I’m grieving I always put them there first
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I lost my amazing Bri oct 2022 from a cardiac arrest, he was only 47…how the hell!! No symptoms, he was fit and healthy or so we thought.
I just cant brlieve there so many other similar heartbreaking stories
Why???
Sending lots of love to everyone in this shitty club x
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@Ilovehorses oh god - boyfriends!! That did raise a smile . Won’t be wanting one of those thank you 
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@Annde well the evening before Baz died he looked peaky , we put it down to a recent fall on the stairs . He had a gp appointment the next day . I wasn’t happy so I rang 111 - no emergency so wouldn’t have qualified for 999. He didn’t have breathing issues or chest pains , just looked a bit ill imo . I’m not medically trained. I’ve always felt guilty that I didn’t just go for 999 and tell them about the fall , they might have attended. It’s all “ what ifs and maybes “ because we were told by 111 to take a paracetamol. By 6pm the following day he was dead . I’m never going to get over his loss
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Yeh its really hard seeing people with their partners isnt it when you lost yours xx
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Yeh you got it spot on there @Jol my man was definately stubborn … i asked him loads of time to go to drs because i knew something wasnt right … for over a year !!! But would he listen !! No … xx
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So sorry for everyone however your loved ones passed. My gorgeous Alan was another one who was fine one moment and gone the next. ‘Catastrophic heart failure’ apparently. We only returned from holiday 2 days before and I have been scanning the photos looking for clues but there’s only smiles and laughter. When I found him on the sofa it was clear to me that he had gone; it wasn’t his face anymore. There are no words to describe the horror of that day. I have since been told by the coroner that there was nothing that anyone could have done; he said that even if it had happened in hospital with a doctor standing next to him the outcome would have been the same. I didn’t miss anything and I couldn’t have saved him.
(I dont know if this is the right place to discuss the Covid vaccines but it’s definitely a topic that needs addressing somewhere) x
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Yeb i think that’s what a lot of people are starting to wonder … did the jab cause yhis ill heslth because there seemd to be an awful lot of it about … im not having another jab anyway ! Ever ! I dont trust the government at all … x
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@Deb5 we have all stopped having them in my family- not because of Baz because there’s no proof but they make us all really ill . I don’t trust how quickly it was rolled out and normally we would question something like this . Funny but in 2021 we didn’t
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@Arvia yes the vax is definitely a conversation needing to be had . I do think though that nothing will bring my love back , so talking about it too much is going to open wounds even more. I tend to get obsessed with things
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