last year, i suffered a first trimester miscarriage in my last year of high school. and no matter what, i still blame myself for it. i was drinking the night before. i can’t help but still mourn for the baby that i never got to meet and i don’t know how to move on
I’m so sorry to hear about your miscarriage and that you are struggling to move on. It is completely normal to mourn for this loss, and people on this site will tell you that feelings of guilt are a very common part of grief. It sounds as though you could really do with some support to deal with these feelings and help you move forward.
I’m glad that you’ve been able to share how you are feeling here. I’d suggest you might also find it really helpful to contact The Miscarriage Association, who offer a helpline, support groups, live webchat with support workers, and an online forum similar to this one, where you can talk to others who have been affected by miscarriage: https://www.miscarriageassociation.org.uk/how-we-help/