My wife and I raised children, outlived our parents and siblings. Our neighbors have either moved or passed away years ago. My wife and I spent every minute of every day together for the last 7 years. She was my world. My children are from a different era, with different interests. It gets too quiet.
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Hi Mark, it’s hard that’s for sure… The person we spoke to for so long about anything isn’t there to reply. I’m sure we all feel this every day, I know I do. My Cat is rubbish conversation, but I do talk at her all day! I also talk to my girl all the time, keep her updated on my day… I feel she hears me. Silence can be deafening.
The good thing is, there are so many of us here in the same situation and we understand 
Keep posting and keep visiting, we’re all here to help each other.
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I know exactly how you feel. We moved to the seaside a couple of years ago, hoping that the air would help my wife. She became housebound a few weeks later so we didnt get to meet new people as planned.
I cared for my wife 24/7 and now shes gone i feel isolated.
I couldnt talk to my sons about how ill Susan really was and don’t want to worry them now:
They are grieving too.
Im looking in to joining the local men’s shed for some adult company , just as soon as I’ve finished all the paperwork associated with a bereavement
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I think that is one of the things that really hurts. We have been there, looked after our loved ones. Was busy. Always someone to talk to.
Now. Nothing. No one to cook for. No one to talk to. No one to laugh with. No one to complain to. Just nothing. Deafening silence. Feeling lost. Feeling useless.
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That’s exactly how most of us feel I suspect, I know I do sometimes. But this is a good place to come and dump these thoughts, we understand. You’re not alone Hope you get some rest, and tomorrow is a bit easier, it goes up and down.
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I think we all know those feelings, it is hard even to watch the telly sometimes, or use social media. All you see is other happy couples… But no one seems to see the pain you’re in inside. But we know, it’s horrible but we understand how you’re feeling, we’ve all been there and still are. It does get easier I feel terribly lonely sometimes, coming here and dumping those thoughts does help, it’s not something we can seem to be able to do elsewhere, or tell others close to us. I hope you’re weekend gets a bit easier, and if you fancy an inane chat about whatever, you’re very welcome to msg me
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@Ilovehorses
Im quite fatalistic in my approach (somewhere out there is a metaphoric bullet with my name on it) - hopefully caught in time and surgeons are optimistic they have removed both - my eldest daughter is a GP which helps too. She says “if youre gonna get cancer dad, thats your best option lol because the odds are in your favour if you catch it early.” Love her brutal outlook on life lol
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I love my two gorgeous girls and my grandchildren with all my heart - they are precious and priceless !
I have an awesome sister too !
My brother is the reason I have no faith ! He’s a CofE vicar and hasn’t spoken to me or my sister since 24/09/2000 ! The day after my wedding to my beautiful Elissa !
Bloody hypocrite preaching family values whilst abandoning his own and treating my mom like something he scraped off his shoe !
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I have my girls and the little ones plus my sister and her family! That’s all I need plus some good friends
This situation has taught me a great deal about who you can count on when the chips are down ! And the conclusion has surprised me
What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger- it’s so true
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You have to stand back and draw some real life lessons - decide who is worthy of your time and attention ! Who is in your corner when needed?
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Sadly I’ve not had any support from family and friends as such. Don’t get me wrong, people offer to help if you need it… And my partners daughter has been great. But I’ve realised that in the 30 years we were together, we only needed each other. Friends over time have drifted away, it’s only me still here. That does make me a bit sad, but also tells me a few things. I know a lot of people, but I only had two friends… Myself and my girl.
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