I’m just writing this to vent to be honest , I miss my mum she passed away in July from cancer , I miss her laugh, her advice , her presence , everything. It’s been 3 months however I feel like things are getting worse for me , I cry everyday even more so than when she’d just passed , on my way to work , hiding away in work , and coming home from work. I miss her so much. I speak to people close to me who support me but nothing changes it doesn’t make me feel better speaking to them even though they are great , the realisation that I’ll never see or speak to her again breaks me.
Thanks for listening i could write more but I don’t want people to feel depressed
You aren’t on your own. I’m standing in my kitchen tears streaming down my face really wanting to speak to my Mum tonight. I lost her the day after Mother’s Day this year. Tomorrow it will be 7 months. I flip flop between feeling fine, feeling numb and feeling nothing and everything all at the same time. I have a husband going through counselling and his own stuff at the moment and my son turns 5 next week. I have a full time job I put my mask onto everyday and I just want to curl up in my bed and sleep u til it feels better again. Trying to get on with everyday life whilst reminded every day of the day she died just doesn’t get easier
Hi Laura thanks for your reply I too was writing that with floods of tears. I completely get the flip flop between emotions, I feel like I’m living in a daze most of the time , it doesn’t feel right being happy when that hole is there missing even though she would want me to be. The longer it gets from when she was here the harder it’s getting it seems.