Hi @Galadriel, I am so sorry to read about your son. It sounds as though things are very tough at the moment and you are feeling overwhelmed.
I’m glad that you’ve been able to share how you are feeling here, and I hope that you find the community a good source of support. Everyone here has experienced the loss of a loved one and will understand some of what you are going through. There is a recent thread here which you may find particularly relevant and I would encourage you to join in there.
There are some useful resources on our website, including this article which I thought you might find insightful, even if it simply reassures you that how you are feeling is normal.
You mention counselling and it can be difficult to find the right service, especially if face-to-face counselling is not available in your area. Sue Ryder offers a free bereavement counselling service and sessions are held via video chat so you can attend from home. There’s more information about this here.
Keep reaching out and please know that we’re here for you.
Take care,
Mick
Online Community team