Good afternoon everyone,
My mum died 19th December 2018 and I spent the last ,6 years having bereavement counselling. I have no friends and my son who has aspergers.So I cannot talk to him much about my grief as I have to be there for him for his grief over losing his much loved nan. Was hoping last year I was not needing counselling then my ex husband got really ill and was in hospital 2 months. I was there everyday seeing him. He was living with my son and I for a few weeks while the extra rails were put up in his house. I still have mum’s as I need them now. He had his birthday with us and then he went back to his home. He was there 7 days and I found him dead. This was such a massive shock. So now having some more counselling again The hardest dates are coming round fast. Christmas as just me and my son, the 19th December will be 6 years since losing mum. January 13th is her birthday which would have been her 95th birthday and in April would have been my ex husband’s 82nd birthday and then the 2nd year since losing him. Both my son and I are seeing a mental health nurse as well are both struggling a lot. I hate Christmas so much now as mum loved this time of year especially if it snows.
Noreen.
Hi @NoreenAnn ,
Thank you so much for sharing this with the community 
I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support, but I just wanted to let you know that you have been heard and you are not alone.
Take good care,
Alex
Hi @NoreenAnn
Sorry to hear you and your son are struggling like you are, it’s a horrible situation to be in and I don’t really know what to say to help, but wanted to reach out to you. I too lost my dear Mum only 6 months ago and I’m struggling too. Living with grief is something that I think changes you for ever. I feel for you having no friends to be able to be supported by. Keep having your counselling and seeing any professionals who you feel help, even if it’s only a bit. Keep doing what you’re doing, your son needs you.
I will never feel the same again, I was so close to my Mum and she was such a huge part of our life, miss her so much and dreading Christmas, I don’t want to take part. There’s so many people struggling with grief on here yet you walk outside and life goes on. People wear masks in public we have no idea how people are feeling until you come onto a site like this. I think I would have gone crazy had I not realised it’s not just me that’s been affected so much by grief.
Keep posting and take care, look after yourself as best you can. Sending a hug