I lost my mum in November 22. It was totally unexpected. I was with her when she passed, as i wouldnt leave her side in the hospital.
She didnt have a funeral, her wishes, not mine. I am an only child and only have my dad near me.
I just cant cope with this void she has left. I feel robbed. I am so so angry too. I have been diagnosed with ptsd and am receiving complex grief therapy.
I have no interest in anything any more, i just want my mum 
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Hi.
I have just lost my mum last week. I am angry. I was with her but it was suspicious. Waiting for answers from hospital.
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I am sending u loads of love and hugs
Oh Emz I’m in the same boat. You are definitely not alone in this. My mum didn’t want a funeral either. I was pleased in one respect because I think I would have died myself if I had to attend. Now we have her ashes and I am torn between resting them somewhere and keeping them. My step Dad who I still love and care for has them but eventually they will come to me. She has hundreds of friends so I’m always thinking of doing something for her but is it too late when it’s been over a year?
Sometimes just dont want to be here without her. So I understand. It’s like I’ve resorted back to being a child again in many ways the way I pone for her. So many memories that have been hidden for years come back like sharing a bed with her, long drives and chats, presents she bought me. I feel like a baby. Like a child. I miss her. I want her so much.
The thing that has helped me the most was grief counselling through Sue Ryder, the grief texts and getting out when I can. Sometimes I just have to say to myself- I can’t carry this today and I deliberately ignore the grief. I can’t do it every time but if I don’t I’m going to get really ill. (Mentally). It doesn’t feel right to ignore it or put it to one side but I know my mum would be ok with that. She wouldn’t want me to suffer so much. I don’t think my message helps much but you are not alone. Big mum type hugs for you. Xx
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Hi anne, thankyou so much for your reply.
Mums ashes are at her house, my dad there. All her stuff is there, i havent touched a thing, also i havent been in house since she passed, o just cant do it.
Im currently in therapy for complex grief, i also get the text messages.
I totally understand where you sat she feel like you are a child again, same here.
Much loveand hugs z
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