When Mum and Dad died last year it was awful, but a part of me can cope with it as they weren’t well. My sister was an alcoholic. She was vile time at times, cruel and horrid sometimes to our parents. Now, I can’t stop crying. I’m going through a spell of feeling guilty about what o didn’t do for her in life and when she died. She had an unattended cremation and I look back now and am not sure it was right. The state I was in though, I just went along with what my brother wanted. We did scatter her ashes together and had someone come to say some words.
I miss her! I feel so hypocritical but I’m not coping at the moment with my emotions.
Hello @Daphne6,
I’m so sorry for your losses and how you are feeling. Thank you for sharing this with us. I’m just giving your thread a gentle, “bump” for you - hopefully someone will have some thoughts to share.
Take good care,
Alex
Thanks. I was so horrid to her at times but it honestly had got to the point where I had to walk away.and see her on a weekly basis for a short period of time. It pushed me to my lowest depths. Now I feel so bad that I couldn’t help her or get anyone else to. I saw her briefly on the Wednesday. She was dead within days. I know it wasn’t my fault but I’m struggling