Why do I feel so:
Lacking motivation, without the impetus to strive or excel:
unambitious
slack
lazy
indolent
workshy
unindustrious
shiftless
slothful
uninterested
apathetic
lethargic
indifferent
unenthusiastic
spiritless
unmoved
unenergetic
uninspired
unenterprising
feckless
motivationless
idle
good-for-nothing
lackadaisical
lifeless
inattentive
worthless
incompetent
aimless
loafing
inept
?
It’s all part of grief, I try to explain to my friends you can have the thought but not the inclination, I have just read a good explanation for apathy on griefincommon.com which completely understands and expresses how I feel so it’s quite ok to be apathetic and look kindly on it, like you say the other expressions are a bit harsh, we’re poor lonely souls who have lost our best part of ourselves, our partners, and we need nurturing and love at such a desperate time in our lives thinking of everyone here xx
Because having our wonderful soulmates around gave us all the opposite emotions - our reason for being. Without them, the list you gave is what we’re left with. That’s what I keep trying to explain to people not in our situation. Yes, I can do those things we had planned by myself but…why? When the whole point of doing them was doing them with him. They won’t evoke the same emotions by myself.