It has been just over a year since I lost my Fiance and i have found myself looking for new companionship.
I have found that I start to get close to someone and when things start to feel like they are moving in the right direction, It seems to fall apart.
This happens mostly due to my own self sabotaging habits. I don’t understand why I won’t allow myself to move on.
I just seem to hit panic mode.
I don’t know if this is due to the circumstances of my fiance’s death, that I still blame myself for, or whether I’m just scared to commit again in case things go wrong.
I just want to find someone who makes me as happy as she did, but i dont think that will happen.