My mumma died on monday and im completely broken. Today ive done nothing but stare into space. I keep thinking i need to get up and go see her.
So she had 2 strokes 4 years ago and heart attacks was diagnosed with heart failure and vascular disease. Had heart surgery in september then started going downhill from there.
Ive cared for her 24/7 this whole time and we’ve been incredibly close my whole life.
How do you do this? Like i know shes gone but my brain feels like puzzle pieces that cant connect
I spoke to my gp today and he diagnosed me with severe ptsd i dont want to eat and sleep is hard altho i did pass out this afternoon. I dont want to move from my bed
I’m so sorry for the loss of your mum. Thank you for sharing this with us. I’m just giving your thread a gentle, “bump” for you - hopefully someone will have some thoughts to share.
Hi @Cobie
When a parent passes, it’s a big shock, it changes everything, when it’s all so new & resent we spend a lot of time on autopilot.
My mom had brain tumours, we cared for her at home because it was during COVID, it was very traumatic having to watch her gradually deteriorating everyday, & finally pass there are some things you can’t un-see.
This is your grief journey, so you do what works for you, I remember that early feeling of “Sod it I really don’t want to get up,” but pls eat something, even if it’s just a biscuit or a slice of toast, grief is hard enough without exhaustion through lack of food or water. Sending hugs of support.
Hi @Cobie
I lost my beautiful, amazing Mu. 5 weeks ago, i am truly heartbroken. I have not accepted this and am still in disbelief. Mum had been getting unwell and we thought it was an unresolved UTI causing delirium, however in August Mum was diagnosed with an aggressive malignant brain tumour. I do eat but nothing healthy, and i do sleep but not when i should. Not returned to work either. I guess we have to get through this awful time however we can, knowing our Mums would want us to be able to carry on, but its so hard.
You are not alone in your grief… I am going through a similar experience. My Mum passed three months ago. I was her main carer. Your experience is more recent, so you are still in shock. It is incredibly hard, but your feelings are valid and absolutely normal. Be kind to yourself. Your Mum would want that. Xx
there are some things you can’t un-see.