Mum died

My mumma died on monday and im completely broken. Today ive done nothing but stare into space. I keep thinking i need to get up and go see her.

So she had 2 strokes 4 years ago and heart attacks was diagnosed with heart failure and vascular disease. Had heart surgery in september then started going downhill from there.

Ive cared for her 24/7 this whole time and we’ve been incredibly close my whole life.

How do you do this? Like i know shes gone but my brain feels like puzzle pieces that cant connect

I spoke to my gp today and he diagnosed me with severe ptsd i dont want to eat and sleep is hard altho i did pass out this afternoon. I dont want to move from my bed