I’ve never used something like this before… but right now I am desperate for help so here goes. My mum first had breast cancer in 2003, and it came back in 2010, and had spread to her lungs. She had a range of drugs which kept it stable for time and then stopped working and so they moved onto the next one etc. Recently, she was in and out of hospital all the time, with dehydration and temperatures. The cancer spread to her stomach, liver and throat, meaning she now can’t talk or eat or drink anything. She was in hospital for 3 weeks deteriorating before they said there was nothing more they could do, and so she has been moved to a Sue Ryder hospice to end her life, saying she has maybe days or weeks left (now 5 days into this).
I am absolutely heartbroken… my mum is literally my best friend and my whole world. Me and my brother are at university but lived with her in the holidays. We have now had to move in with my dad, as it was too emotional to be in mums house without her. I am struggling so much, everyday I see her she is getting weaker and weaker and its breaking my heart. I just want to make everything better but there is nothing we can do.
I am so so scared for the future, i literally cannot imagine life without her. Christmas is coming up and I just don’t even want to think about it without my mum. Has anyone been in a similar situation that can just tell me it will be ok because I’m struggling to see that I will get through this.
Thank you xxxx