Today was my mother’s first birthday in heaven. I wanted to try and celebrate her birthday but instead I spent it missing her, not that that is anything new. I miss my mother more and more every day. I just feel lost without her.
I was my mother’s carer for over 10 years and worked full time, although I will be eternally grateful for the time we spent together I also live with lots of regrets for not taking the time to enjoy that time more.
I was always tired, always rushing to get things done, didn’t always have patience. Through it all I never stopped loving my mum but my actions didn’t always show this.
I know my mother knew that I loved her, but I don’t think she knew just how much 
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I’m so sorry for the loss of your mum, @Melliemel13. Birthdays can be so hard and you’re not alone. I’m just giving your thread a gentle bump 
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I miss my Mum terribly too, I miss my mum more it seems as time goes on.
I also worked full time whilst being there for my mum and I was continually tired too. Be kind to yourself. Thinking of you.
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Thank you Granzi for your kind words. It isn’t easy but I will need to try and be kind to myself.
Sorry for the loss of your mum too 
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