It happened just over 8 weeks ago. I’m completely broken. We are still not 100% certain of the cause but it has initially been given as an asthma attack which lead to a cardiac arrest. Still waiting for post mortem results to rule anything else out. I just feel like I’m in some sort of waking nightmare. I also have a 6 year old little girl who saw everything that happened to her brother (including me attempting CPR). She knows mummy is very sad right now but doesn’t understand the depth of it, or things like why I’m not back at work yet (I work at her school) My husband and I are trying to support as best we can but it is so difficult. I just feel so so broken without him. Everything reminds me of him. Due to my AuDHD I definitely put on a mask especially with things such as the school run, I don’t want to cry in front of people and everyone says I seem to be coping really well, but the reality is very different. I just miss him so much. My little bear 
I’m so very sorry for the loss of your darling boy. I can’t imagine the pain you feel, but also working in a school and having children myself my heart aches for you.
Losing a child at a young age is hard to comprehend and must seem impossible to accept.
Be kind to yourself as you try to navigate not just your feelings but your daughter’s too. I hope school is being supportive for you both. There are various child specific supports that can be offered.
Sending you strength.
Sending love and hugs , nothing anyone says can make this better .
You must all be heartbroken.
I dont think it helps when people say you seem to be coping well.they have no idea .
Hi Hannahelizabeth
You have already learnt that you have to put on a face to hide the agony you are feeling inside. People never understand the pain that comes with the death of your child. The only ones who identify with this are those who have lost a child themselves and there are many of them on this site. We are all here for you especially in your darkest moments.
Sending you hugs from us all
Letty