I lost my first son 38 years ago this year to cot death as it was called then. He was my 2nd child, he died christmas morning. I still wonder what he would have become in life, where is he now? Does he miss us as we miss him?. Its hard to explain, but my arms still ache to hold him, i went on to have another 2 sons and i look at them and have so many “i wonder’s”?
Hi @Sara66 ,
Thank you so much for sharing this with the community 
I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support, but I just wanted to let you know that you have been heard and you are not alone.
Take good care,
Alex
My baby son died at birth 42 years ago today.
I have thought same thoughts.
I also had another baby boy a year later. And he was my middle child as have an older son.
I have thought what he would have been like. I used to think would see him when passed and my husband passed 18 months ago and there are his relatives also in the churchyard.
I don’t know what to think now.