I am still absolutely devastated & heartbroken over the sudden death of my beautiful horse. I can’t stop thinking about what happened & how traumatic it was. I am crying everyday & no one understands
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I completely relate to you darling. I lost my first heart - horse a few years back which was sudden and horribly traumatic for everyone involved (colic, f%ck colic). This isn’t about me of course but I just want you to know I 100% know how you’re feeling here. The connection us horsey people form with our horses is unlike anything I’ve ever seen, and it’s no wonder this is taking such a toll on you. There’s nothing anyone can say or do to lessen your grief, but just know that you WILL learn how to cope with it. You 10000% will be able to walk through life with the memories of your lovely horsey being positive and not just reminding you of this tragic time, I promise you. It’s all just a matter of time, you just have to surrender to the grief and let yourself feel however you do in that moment, and eventually it will ease up and become easier to manage. I’m so sorry for your loss, I know how unimaginably heavy and horrible it is but I am also proof that it becomes easier to cope with as time goes on. Sending so much love to you
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I can understand how devastated you must be feeling, it takes time. We lost our brautiful mare ten months ago, shes missed by me and my daughter everyday. They are such a huge part of our lives, its like losing a family member. I cried and cried for weeks after we lost T. For a long time i couldnt even talk about her without crying, i still have tears when i see a memory come up, we had so many amazing memories which noone can take away. Although having her pts was planned, she was nearly 30, had had a good life with us, it didnt make it any easier.
You will get through it, i wont say it gets easier but you learn to live with losing your beautiful horse, try and think about the good times. People who say its just a horse havent ever loved one. We put so much of our lives into looking after and loving them, its a very very special bond. I get by remembering those good times and try not to think about the end.
Xx
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Thank you for this. I think because he was only 11 & such a good boy, it feels so hard to accept, I still feel in shock. My dad had just bought him for my daughter after 5 years of loaning him, we’d only owned him 5mths when he broke his leg in the field, it was so sudden 
we’d been on the new yard less than 2 months, I have terrible guilt that we shouldn’t have moved him.
I had to go to the field & held him, while the vet was with him, he was such a calm brave boy to the end…totally devastated
Thank you for this. Sorry I have replied below, not sure if you can see it?