My brother took his own life last October. It is such a shock. Nothing will ever be the same. Before that we lost our brother in law due to illness. Sometimes it is overpowering. I cannot believe he is gone. I have anxiety very badly. I often think of our Mother who adored him and why he wouldn’t think of her. Just don’t know what to think.
I’m so sorry for the loss of your brother .
I lost my adored son this way 10 weeks ago and have a daughter who like you misses her brother.
I guess in their mindset at that time they didn’t think about the people who loved them that they were leaving behind .
They just needed to escape their pain at that moment .
We all wish they had talked to us and not taken this path .
Suicide is a complex thing .
I think the way to look at it is that they were poorly and couldn’t get better .
You and your mum will be different people because of this but will help each other through it . You will never get over it but learn to live with it .
Maybe it’s worth looking into councilling for you and your mum ?
Thank you for your lovely reply. My mother is long gone. But its her memory. I am so sorry for your loss. We are left to do what we can. They had no idea how it just leaves us lost. X