My beautiful Dad passed away in August and I have lost myself within me. He was my entire world, both parents rolled into 1. He loved, provided, fed, bought me up as a single parent and he was in my eyes the best Dad in the world.
Feels like my whole life has collapsed around me and I can hardly breathe sometimes. I miss my Dad more than ever and this is the worst pain I ever ever felt in all my life and I just want my Dad back.
I have little support around me and feel trapped. It’s like I’m living the same daily explosion everyday in my head and it’s broken my little world. I saw my Dad in the Chapel of Rest and I was blown apart.
How do I live without the one person who has been with me all my life, the one person who really loved me? I would give anything to see him again. 
I am so sorry to hear about your loss. It must be so difficult given your circumstances and my heart goes to you.
How do we move on from this pain, that cuts knife deep through the heart. Feels like everything is over for me now.
I can’t even bare being outside much, as it feels like everything is just too loud now and far too busy and I need life to be quiet and slow.
I miss my Dad so so so badly. I hate life without him here. It pains me like nothing I’ve ever known.
So sorry for your loss. I completely understand everything your going through. I lost my dad 3 months ago, at first i was running around been there for my mum they were togetther for 54 years, soughting funeral out and making sure my own family were ok. I went back to work, only had a week off. And now that everything has slowed down, i feel the loss so much. The pain when i open my eyes and the pain when i close them seeing his little face. dad went into hospital and within a week he had died, am still in shick i guess. We disnt no he had cancer and looks like he didnt tell us to protect us, but this we will never no and that i have to except. I find through life exceptance for everything! When we get exceptance then we can slowly deal with what comes with it. I have excepted i have lost the most bravest, strongest man ill ever know and excepted i will have to keep going and been there for myself and my kids and one day i will see him again, he is waiting for all of us to join him. But this life we have to live. My dad now lives within me and your dad lives within you. They are with us always.
Every morning I wake up and realise it’s not a dream and I can’t bare it In my head.
My Dad also knew he was dying, but didn’t tell me to protect me and I get that.
I don’t have a support network, as my Mum and brother are very selfish people and are not there for me at all. My Dad bought me up on his own, along with my brother. It was always me and Dad though. I cry and cry and I just can’t get my head round this loss. I have his ashes now and I bought a teddy especially, so they could fit inside and they do. All of Dad ashes are in my special teddy.
Can’t believe that August 18th just past, was day 1 of the worst days of my life. I sensed something was really wrong, I even voiced out loud, today is going to be the worst day of my life, it’s like I knew and when I got to Dad’s flat, there was no truer statement I had ever made.
It was the start of an existing nightmare, that’s really blown my world apart. He was my world and I feel like my head’s in a car crash everyday. I love my Dad so much, just feel like half of me has also died. I hate life without him.
I am very sorry for your loss. My mum i lost in may i feel just like you. My dad died when i was 14 and here i am 41 years young with 4 kids and a hubby and my brother only family i have now. My mother was so special to me she was my world. I looked after her every day she lived 7 doors away i had to empty her house. Now i dred seeing any one move in as she died in her hospital bed there. I’m not really coping i just joined today i wanted to stop and say hi to you and to let you know we are all here for each other.
Thank you, I just joined yesterday.
Especially sad times and I woke up crying listening to a song called
“Heaven in the way” if you YouTube it, it’s very beautiful and heartbreaking.
Like you, I had to empty Dad’s flat too and it was beyond any emotion I’ve known, totally crushing. Also sorting out the funeral and everything else that goes along with a loss.
Just sat here at home mostly, as the outside world feels like a challenge and noise seems louder then ever, even if I have the TV on, It has to be very low in the background.
If I have to listen to my Mum asking me what’s wrong and I’m like, what’s wrong??? She’s very self centred and she never had love for me. I keep my distance, coz she drains me from life and has no empathy or compassion and makes me feel like I am worthless.
My parents divorced and Dad was my Mum and now he’s gone and I am left here to live this cruel cruel brutal world and I just feel cut off.
Also in my 40’s.
Hello I lost my Dad suddenly 22nd July, I understand the pain you are feeling . It’s indescribable. So so painful and sad .
I miss him so much .
I am here anytime you need someone x
Hi Laura,
I’m sorry for your loss, it’s horrific. I don’t get it, how everything is good one minute and then the next minute, it’s the worst time of life. I am so so sad and upset and just beyond all hope of ever feeling better.
Through this morning, I woke up from what must have been a dream, to persistant loud knocking, I wonder if it was my Dad trying to make contact… It’s a real head trip of sadness and I am barely going out and not really seen anyone. Just can’t understand any of this and it’s the worst time of my entire life. I want to see him and talk to him and it hurts and through the tears, its like the world is closing in on me and making me go into myself. The one parent I had, that was both parents and now he’s been taken and I am left here in all this pain and hardly any support. The tears roll and I’m unfixable.
It’s all so unbearable.xx
I totally understand. Totally . It’s so isolating this grief . Please message me . I think talking to people on here can help as they actually do understand xx
Thank you x
I am so sorry you are going through all this. It really is not fair and i understand completely 
my dad suddenly past and i was number 1 daddies girl. I was only 28 and i had to plan my dads funeral. I had just had a baby and she was only 6 weeks old when my dad died. My dad only had me and my brother (my mum and dad split up when i was 3) Its something you will never be ready for my dad was my biggest emotional support and my hero and i am so lost without him .
There is no time limit on grief it feels like some times when a couple of months have passed that everyone expects you to be ok and get on with it but that is not the case. Do not let anybody tell you when its time to stop grieving
Or to stop crying for your dad. I still do and its nearly been 2 years and i will probably still be crying for my dad for many more years. I still have his ashes and i can not bare the thought of scattering them i just want him here with me.
It is such a lonely experiance you can be surrounded by people but still feel so alone with it all.
The grief I feel, is so so strong and I can’t understand why my Dad had to go.
My eyes have cried and cried and I am just so lost and alone.
It’s the biggest hurt and pain I have ever had and all I want, is to see him again and give him the biggest hug and I can’t and it really really breaks me. I’m utterly torn up and my heart feels like it’s been ripped from within and put back inside me into a million pieces all broken up. Words can’t express the depth of this pain and sadness and I am at my lowest point I could ever be. Nothing pains me like losing my Dad. X
I noo these feelings so well i just want to be with him but i have to carry on for my 2 little girls. One of which he will never no and she the same it breaks my heart but im thankful he got 5 years with my oldest daughter. But it still isnt enough. Sounds selfish but i to think why my dad 
Also i love that you have a teddy with your dads ashes in i didnt no that was something you could do x
Hi, Sending all my love to you. I’ve lost my mum 18 months ago and I’m still feeling it so much. I lost my father suddenly when I was 25; I’m not saying it was easy, but we weren’t so super close.
My mum, on the contrary, was my everything. I’m 57 now. I was 56 when I lost her. She was ill for quite some time but you’re never ready to lose someone you love so much. I coped better in the first few months. So many things to sort out… Then it hit me like a train. Last summer was terrible. Couldn’t stop crying.
It’s getting a bit more bearable now. I feel like she’s close to me and she sees me, and I talk to her everyday in my mind (and loud when I’m alone!) So I hope with time you’ll feel a bit better too. It’s ups and downs. Some days I can’t believe she’s gone and I want to phone her and talk to her badly. Other days it’s a bit easier. A beloved parent stays with us in our heart forever. Sending strength and hugs 
I feel exactly the same . You’ve written it exactly . It’s awful. Here if you need to talk x
Everything is just so painful and it’s hard to get my head round any of it.
Just had a dream about my Dad and I was telling him that I went to see him at the chapel of rest and we chatted about his death, it was really bizarre and now I’ve woken up. Do you think that was Dad visiting me through a dream?
I think your dad came to visit you 
i have had a few dreams where im just sat talking to my dad and it feels so real its beauitful in a way. Im always searching for him x
Yes I do .Very possibly. I had one where I had my arms around my Dad and I said I just didn’t want you
To be poorly or tired and he said he wasn’t … but he was sad to be away from us x
Wow. This feels like I could have written it myself. My dad was also a single parent to me and I also lost him in August. I spent 3 months caring for him before he passed (moved away from my husband and children for that time just to be there for him) and I feel that only now, 5 weeks after he passed, has any of it actually become real for me.
I’m so sorry for your loss. I really do feel your pain.
I hope you are getting some support at this time x
@Diane1981 i can relate, my dad spent 3 weeks in hospital from diagnosis of lung cancer then ‘slipped away peacefully’ which he did. We didn’t know he had cancer or how long for? That’s what killing me trying to figure out when he got the cancer, as it had spread to his bones when we found out 
On the day he got pains, that morning I wonder if he was in pain and just never told any of us but we’ll never know.
We took a photo that day and just the way he was standing, didn’t look right but we didn’t know anything at the time