My fiancee died 2 months ago

My fiancee died 2 months, i was with him when it happened and i am starting to like i am suffering with not grief but ptsd. I am feeling like i am a burden on everyone

Dear Bearbear
You’re not a burden but it sounds like you need extra support and that might have to be via a Gp or counselling
This is such a hard time and our community have so much honesty
And try to support by speaking of the new normal
I hope you are making sure you have meals and remember to have a comforting drink
Sometimes I behave better if I try to do what I would normally do just as a pattern for living that worked well in life before this all happened
Sending Virtual hugs

What you’re describing sounds incredibly heavy, and it makes sense that you feel shaken after going through something so traumatic