I am missing my husband so much and wish I could join him as so so lonely and scared and lost as have no 1 my adult children hate me and only have my fur babies for company but think I will be better of dead as really am heartbroken and just don’t want to be here ive tried everything to be with him wish I could be in his arms again but I know I can’t use to believe that there was life after death but now I don’t believe in anything I just know that the pain I feel now and it’s greater now with out my husband I really do love him more then life it’s self why do I have to suffer here why can’t I be with him
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Dear Sammyjo I am so sorry you are suffering so much. The pain of losing one’s loved one is the worst thing that can happen to anybody. We spend years becoming one, growing together in a union which is the closest thing to heaven on earth. When we are broken apart, which is inevitable we are brought lower than we ever thought possible but I hope and pray that if we stay the course we will be reunited with are love in heaven.I hope you find some peace soon. I will keep you in my prayers
Wishing you all the strength you will need
Tom
I’m so sorry for your loss and the way you’re feeling just now. I lost my partner nine months ago and I’ve felt like that many times. To be honest many bereaved people have thought like that but wouldn’t admit it. Can I suggest that you contact your mental health team online or via your GP. You can phone the Samaritans anytime of the day or night. Could you reach out to your estranged children as being alone makes everything worse? Take care.
Hello @Sammyjo71,
I’m sorry to hear about your husband. I’m hearing how painful this is all feeling and I want you to know that you’re not alone. There’s always someone out there to help you through this.
It sounds like you’re looking for support and I’m glad that you’ve been able to talk about how you’re feeling here. We know that a lot of people experience suicidal thoughts when they are grieving. We have a video about it here which you might find helpful:
There is lots of other support out there, and I would really encourage you to reach out and speak to someone about how you are feeling.
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If these thoughts of suicide become overwhelming, please call 999 or contact your GP for an emergency appointment immediately.
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You can call 111 and choose the mental health option to speak to a trained mental health professional (England, Scotland and Wales only)
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Samaritans are available 24/7 to talk about anything that you are worried about in confidence. You can call them on 116 123.
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Shout are contactable by text, 24/7. You can text SHOUT to 85258 and talk to them about anything.
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You can also find your local NHS urgent mental health helpline.
You can also make an appointment with your GP and ask to be referred to counselling or other support services in your area.
You deserve care and support so please, @Sammyjo71, get in touch with one of these services.
Take good care,
Alex