I was married for 57 years and engaged for 1 year and the other courting. 59 years in all. My husband died at the end of June. He was very ill and I cared for him myself. I was with him when he died thankfully . No one prepared me. I could see it was coming and the end was so traumatic. The hospital care was abysmal and I just do noit want to be here anymore
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My husband died suddenly three weeks ago. I never got to say goodbye. Married over 40 years, we became almost very as one. Our world shrank but we didn’t care as we had each other. I don’t think I’ll do anything drastic but I DO NOT WANT TO BE HERE!!!
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Dear @Marshmallow and @Sisterhannah
I feel your pain. Please don’t give up.
I’m much further lon in this journey and although I can’t promise that the pain and missing ever go away, it does get easier and you will find you are coping.
I still cry every day and I miss my husband terribly but I am starting to cope.
This journey is full of ups and downs, like a rollercoaster.
We all understand your heartbreak because we are all going through it too
Sending hugs to you x
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My husband died 7 weeks ago on Sunday. I struggle with agrophobia and panic attacks, he was my support, got ne through so many difficult things. There isnt a day hour or minute that i dont miss him. I have to try each day to try and stay strong but omg its not easy. My family are no where to be seen except an odd phone call or WhatsApp message. I have no close friends, so i am doing this very much alone. I hope one day I can look back and think I made him proud but thats a long way off. I am so very lonely days are long but the nights are so much longer. 
i hope one day we all find some sort off happiness we all deserve 
xx
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We all feel your agony. None of us want to be here really. But we just have to put one foot in front of the other and get through each day an hour at a time.
It’s nine weeks for me, the constant tears have stopped but I cry every day.
Keep reading here, keep posting. Everyone understands.
Hugs xx
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Good morning Jo
I remember when you first posted on here and how wretched you were. You didnt think you could cope.
I know it’s still early days for you but look how far you’ve come, you’ve coped. You’re stronger than you realise.
I know you won’t believe me but it does get easier. The pain doesn’t go and the awful missing never stops but you cope.
You have Millie now too, how’s she getting on?
Big hugs
Liz x x
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Lost my husband just over a week ago . Just feel lost ! Finding it so hard tears keep coming .
Have support of friends but life will never be the same .
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Good morning Liro, you are so right everyday is a struggle, but i am still here. Millie is a little terror defiently keeping me on my toes. There are still moments i think whats the point .xxxty for caring xxx
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I do understand. I still feel the same at times.
But our husbands would not have wanted us to be so sad and wretched all the time.
I know Roger was worried about me but I kept telling him I’d be ok.
I’m not.
But I will be, eventually.
I will never forget him or stop missing him, I will carry him in me heart and my mind forever.
One day Jo you will get to a place where you can look forward. And you will cope.
There is a point, I won’t try to say what but somewhere down the road we will live again
Love and hugs
Liz x x
Dear @Bambam123
I’m so sorry for your loss.
Just let the tears come.
I still cry 5 months on, but not all day like I used too.
Things will improve but I’m afraid you’ve got a long way to go.
But one day you will realise you are coping.
Reach out and take any support you can.
Keep posting on here you will find lots of support and understanding from people who are all going through this horrendous grief journey.
It has helped me through many dark times.
Sending you a big hug
Liz x x
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Thank you good to get in touch with people who understand ! It just comes in waves future scary at the moment !
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Hiya Bambam really scary i know that feeling ,but hopefully one day the pain wont be as severe and we can speak there names without tears .xxxx
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I know exactly how you are feeling as my husband died 3 weeks ago. I’m also disabled so can’t get out alone. We are all grieving in our own ways and hopefully the pain will ease, though I think that’s a long way off. We have an outlet to pour our hearts out here and read the many wise words others have written. Take care of yourself.X
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Ty Liro you have been such a great support to me . I have read all your posts and you give me hope. Tomorrow my daughter gets married i wont lie I am dreading it but Ivam taking strength from you.xxx
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Aww bless you Frankie one day I hope we have the strength Liro as got. Xxx
Oh Jo
I know that its going to be so hard for you
But please try and enjoy the day like Gra would have wanted you to . There will be tears but thats ok.
My thoughts will be with you. Have the best day you can. Gra will be with you in your heart
Big hugs x x
Thank you Liro I am going to do my best and take tomorrow as best as I can it will be bitter sweet zI know, then on Friday it would have been our 16th wedding anniversary. So a tuff few days. They have just called from the funeral directors to say they are bringing his ashes and the jewellery I ordered today do you think its a sign, he is with me. Xxx
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Gosh I really don’t think I’m strong.
But I’m a lot further on than you so maybe to you I seem strong.
To me I don’t.
But thinking about it, I am learning to cope and trying to move forward. It’s really hard but I told Roger I would be ok and I am trying.
Yesterday was the first time I didn’t cry in many months so that’s a step forward.
This morning I cried at a song on the radio so back to normal.
You will get to where I am, you just have to ride the rollercoaster. I still have bad days, lots of them, but I have good days too.
I shall miss him forever and that is the hardest part.
Love and hugs to everyone x x
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Yes I do, the timing couldn’t have been better. Now he will truly be with you tomorrow
Big hugs x x
You are strong you promised Rogervyou would be ok and 5 months on you are doing it. I bet those down days are just as painful but i bet you are so proud of yourself.
I am really pleased they are ready i can wear them tomorrow and always i will forever carry him in my heart but to have a little part i can hold tomorrow is going to be so helpful. Xxx
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