My husband

I don’t no we’re to start i lost my husband 8 months ago at Christmas and the pain is getting worse he was on drugs for years and a few years ago started on diazapan from the street it turned him into a man i never new i did everything at home and nothing was good enough he liked telling me how useless i was he walked in and out of my life witch broke my heart and always said sorry but did it time after time and when he came home was a shell of a man he said was going cold turkey to get of everything but he had a infection which turned into umonia and he died i feel like its my fault cause I never noticed he was just acting the same as always on the drugs he started them cause he a lot of family problems they never welcomed me and our children his own brother never even came to his funeral they didn’t no any of us

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I am only 7 weeks into my journey so I don’t feel I can offer you any advice. I am so sorry you are feeling like this, it isn’t your fault you didn’t ask for any of this. Sending you love and a gentle hug.

Dear Summerrose, none of this is your fault and you have no cause to blame yourself. You are grieving the same as everyone here. Try to be kind to yourself.
Love and hugs xx

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