I’m heartbroken even though he’s still alive but his low blood count anaemia the vet says he’s got a form of blood cancer attacking his red cells… It’s true that is happening but i google & see other reasons for this issue.
Am i being stupid, in denial or just the love & trying my best to get him better i dunno. He’s lost 2kg but still eating steak & chicken, always been fussy but in himself he looks ok but more vacant especially in morning…
I have terrible anxiety, coping with elderly parents who are both very unwell its all so overwhelming.
I’m so sorry to hear about Syd, @ruprecht.
Thank you for reaching out.
You may want to get in touch with Blue Cross Pet Loss support. They have trained counsellors who can talk to you about your worries. You can speak to them on the phone or online. Their helpline is 0800 096 6606 and it is open from 8.30am - 8.30pm every day. They also have a Facebook community which you may wish to join.
Take good care,
Seaneen
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Hi if you think the vet is wrong can you take him to another vet for a second opinion . You could be right we know our pets better than anyone and it will put your mind at rest. Wishing you all the best .
Syd couldn’t get upstairs last night, he was so weak, i ushered him up & he just collapsed & died. I spent all night with his body & cried all night.I’m heartbroken & the grief is overwhelming… The pet crematorium has just picked him up… Whatever it was it killed him, my best pal Syd… I feel overwhelmed with anxiety by it all i can’t believe it 
I am so sorry, @ruprecht - that is devastating. I shared the Blue Cross Pet Loss support line above, so just know that there is someone on the end of the phone for you. The community is here for you too 
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@Seaneen thanks yes i’m overwhelmed, this time at night he’s sat with me having a treat & now nothing
thank you, i do need to type here as i find it therapeutic. Today the first day in 8 years i haven’t woken with him in the house. I’ve cried buckets this morning not seeing him in the house but seeing everything that reminds me of him. I’ve removed his bed & toys apart from 1,the postman comes & he’s not barking, the house is an empty shell. I tend to be someone that dwells on memories that then make you cry, maybe it’s a way of healing. I know time is needed it’s just so raw at the moment. I don’t think he was in pain just weak & his heart gave in, was so upsetting to see but grateful in ways that we didn’t have to go put him to sleep… They say time heals & if so i wish it would hurry up like most of us say 
I’ve been uploading pics & vids of Syd to save them and it’s breaking my heart… The house is empty, my heart is broken, full of panic & dreading every day at the moment. People say get another which i have been looking into but feel like i’m betraying Syd and what he meant to me but on the other hand dogs there for rescue should be rescued & i think Syd would want that after all that’s what i did for him a month after my other dog died. Thoughts appreciated . Rup
I am so sorry for your loss. Our furry friends occupy such a special place in our hearts. It is such a special bond. I understand the house must be strange without him. Would placing pics of him round the house comfort you or just make you feel worse? It may help with transition with pics up you could sort of see him throughout the house in a different way. Are there any hobbies you enjoy? They might give some comfort and brief distraction
Thankyou, i miss him so much i can often hear him, little noises around the house like him coming upstairs for his treats or drinking from his bowl. No i couldn’t put pics everywhere that would just make me so upset seeing him all the time but not be able to cuddle him although i know there’s some that do, ashes etc. Yes i jog & love to use the computer as is why i’m here i feel sharing & typing helps… Being in the house is painful at the moment as i see where his bed was, pillow in the window he layed on is now gone but i have his favourite to even that upsets me. The grief process is terrible, i just want to hold him & that feeling of not being able to is so painful. Crying a lot.
Perhaps if the house is painful/difficult try to go out a bit more? It wouldn’t have to be far or expensive. We have a co-op, little cafe and card shop about a 20 minute walk away. I find going there for just half an hour can make me feel a bit better sometimes
thanks yeh i go out & into the town to a pub an half hr run, it’s just very hard at moment, it’s just time i guess… Nothing seems to work at the moment unless he came back… I’m heartbroken… My Dr gave me tranquilizers but it’s so soon & happened so fast
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Days are terrible, i miss him so much, am worn out with crying after reminders i see all over the house, he not being there… It’s so raw at the minute & i can’t see it changing anytime soon… finding it very hard to adapt, the life structure has gone, my family are n’t coping with it too & i’ve always known if anything happened Syd they would start to go down hill & i can see it happening as he was so integral in their daily activities. I’m sorry just so overwhelmed with grief, anger & guilt & it’s horrible.