My journey started on the 31 of October 2023 , that’s the day I lost my wife Christine. As we all know that devastating feeling of total devastation . I went back to week 3 weeks after the funeral , because the lowliness was unbearable, I had an allotment garden at the time, which I now believe saved me . I sold my house and give my wife’s half to her 3 sons. As me and Chris had discussed if anything ever happened to us . The fist year every one we knew had gone, no phone calls nothing. My wife’s middle son is the only person that has kept in touch with me, and I him . So two years are almost here , and what have I learnt about my self . I just keep going forward , still working, still enjoying a pint and still love Paul weller 
, Christine would never have wanted me to just stop , she would always say let’s just keep going forward Paul , it will be alright . I will never forget my lover , my friend, my wife. I am truly sorry for everyone on this site , for your loss and your heartache , so take care everyone and look after yourselves x
Hi @Paul2,
Thank you so much for sharing your journey with the community 
Christine’s wise words, ‘let’s just keep going forward’, I’m sure will bring support and comfort to others.
Take good care,
Alex
Hi it’s not good our journey..I lost my husband 31st july 2023
Hi sunset 2023 , yes totally agree it’s a very hard journey we’re all on that’s for sure . Two years today for me and iam reliving all them emotions , all over again. I was Christine’s husband for 30 years , knowing her for 33 years, yet I am so glad I had them years with her . So today I will busy my self cleaning the garden and sweeping the drive hoping my anxiety starts to fade a little over the next few days and then weeks. If your new to this site , give yourself time , and I mean as long as it takes , because I now know these feelings will be with me for a long time to come, so keep posting on this site and let’s ALL look out for each other, take care everyone sending you all my 
and best wishes x
Hi Paul,
Thank you for sharing your story. That’s such a lovely comment to make to look out for each other. So simple but so true. This site sure does that.
Deborah
Hi paul hope things are ok .well as much as life can be ok,you have just done the second anniversary which I’m sure wasn’t easy,I’m 2 years 3months I’ve just down sized and moved last week all very hard not so much pain like in the beginning, the horrible pain in your chest and stomach 
but still so raw
Take good care ..keep working its good for u