TODAY 29TH MARCH 2023 I FEL OVER-POWERED WITH PAIN,GRIEF,SORROW I ASK MYSELF/WONDER WHY I’M FEELING LIKE THIS AND THEN IT HITS ME… ITS BECAUSE MY MUM IS’NT HERE…EVERY OTHER DAY I’VE GOT ON VERY WELL BUT NOT TODAY I FEEL IN DENIAL THAT SHE’S SOMEWHERE NEARBY AND HAS’NT PASSED AWAY I KEEP KIDDING MYSELF THAT SHE’S STILL HERE I NEVER EVER THOUGHT SHE’D DIE…SHE TOLD MY BROTHER AND SISTER TO TAKE SPECIAL CARE OF ME BECAUSE"SHE WAS’NT GOING TO BE AROUND MUCH LONGER" I ALSO WAS’NT WITH HER WHEN SHE SUFFERED A HEART ATTACK AND PASSED AWAY ON THE 26 FEBUARY(5 AND ABIT WEEKS BEFORE HER BIRTHDAY))WHICH IN SOME WAYS I REGRET I THEN SUFFERED THE TRAUMA OF HER FUNERAL JUST 2 DAYS BEFORE MY OWN BIRTHDAY AND THIS YEAR I HAD THE OVERWHEALMING FEELING OF HAVING TO ENDURE MOTHERS DAY ON IT WHICH WAS SO CRUELLY UNFAIR… BUT THEN LIFE IS’NT FAIR IS IT???
I can see that you’re new to the community, so I wanted to say that I am so sorry to hear about your Mum.
I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support, but I wanted to share a few Sue Ryder resources with you that may help you right now.
Our Grief Guide self-help platform which has information, resources and advice to help you through your grief
Our Grief Coach text service, which sends you personalised text support via SMS
Our free Online Bereavement Counselling which is held via video chat
Our Bereavement Information pages which can walk you through what you are going through
Thank you again for sharing – please keep reaching out and know that you are not alone.
Take care, Rhi