Hi, I lost my mum six months ago, and my nan unfortunately died last week she went downhill after my mum died I don’t think she could handle the loss, it’s been the hardest six months of my life, I’m 33 and my mum was 53 when she died 4 days before her birthday, she was in hospital due to an infection and died suddenly from sepsis, I feel like I’m not the same person I was before she died , nothing feels the same and I think of her everyday, I get alot of anxiety which I didn’t have before has anyone else experienced this and does the anxiety go away, I don’t want to see a Dr as I don’t want to be given medication. It’s not life altering anxiety I can still go on with my day but it’s just a horrible feeling like I’m on the verge of a panic attack and it’s usually over something so silly, I find it easier to deal with loss as time goes on but now my nan dying has pushed me back, my nan had said before she died that my mum was sitting in the chair waiting for her, this has brought a big comfort as I know my mum is not alone, it just feels like a huge emptiness that follows me around, usual things that would make me laugh or happy just don’t hit the same anymore,
I also feel awful for my partner as I’m distant with her but not intentionally I just kinda go into myself and I’m neglecting her without realising and this is completely unfair as she has been the most supportive person anyone could wish for.
I just want to be myself again I know you can’t put a time frame on things but anyone suggest as to when it becomes normal do you ever be there person you were before?
Thanks