I’m so sorry for the loss of your nan, @KatieA. I just wanted to connect you with @sam18 who posted yesterday about the loss of their nan, as it sounds like you may understand some of what each other are going through right now.
You might also find it helpful to read our how to cope with grief resource, which talks you how you might be feeling, and gives some ideas for how to cope.
Please do keep reaching out, the community is here for you.
Take good care,
Seaneen