I lost my Nan over Christmas, we were close as I lived with her before I moved away for university.
I do have many happy memories and she has influenced and touched a lot of people as she was such a wonderful lady. I used to ringer her every other day as I get a bit lonely away from my home town and she was always down for a chat or advise.
We shared a lot of the same interests in hobbies, books and film so she’s really moulded me as a person. So I feel a bit lost.
Besides this I have deep empathy for everyone especially my grandad who has never really be much of a talker and keeps himself to himself, they were together for over 65 years so what I feel must be a tiny dent to what he feels. I don’t know how to be there for him.
And I am not strong enough to be there for my dad either, he has had a rough couple of years and a few funerals, one being his best friend.
I can’t impose on my family too much coz I know they’re going through the same thing I’m not a person that can hide feelings at all and I am not even in the same country.
This may seem a little selfish that I am upset over this by as i mentioned I’m in university, I make animated films and as a thank you for my Nan I was making her a film based on a poem she wrote when she was the same age as me, it was a poem she was very proud off the film was meant to be a gift, but now she’s gone. And I miss her so much.
Sorry for essay but I don’t have a lot of people I can tell the whole story without them getting upset and I’m not strong enough emotionally to help anyone.