My son has gone

Does anybody get up ( assuming you ever went to bed) and think I can’t do another day, the pain is awful. Some days were okish for a while, now I seem to have taken steps backwards and I just feel overwhelmed. How are you expected to live in this world without your child. Will it always be about getting through each 24 hrs. My son loved life and I try to remember that but it hurts so much.

Yes. I wake up every day and think ‘Oh no, another day without my daughter’. If I don’t have to go anywhere I don’t get up until I am bored stiff from sitting there.
I don’t cry as much as I did but the pain gets no less. I manage it a bit better but the reality is that this is it for ever. The shock has worn off.
I cannot get my head around the fact that it is over for my child.
Others tell me it will get better but it is hard to believe that it can. However, we are left living here with others to consider and all those that say this, and have survived, must give us hope.
There is nothing that we can change so we must take comfort in any way we can.
Sending you hugs. Xxx