Hello @Kelly75,
I’m so sorry for the loss of your darling son. I can see that @Liin has kindly offered their support, but I just wanted to share this thread from our Losing a child category with you:
It’s one of the many active and supportive threads where you can talk to others who are grieving their children. You are not alone.
You may also want to get in touch with The Compassionate Friends who support families who have lost a child of any age. They have a grief companion scheme where you can get 1-1 support from another bereaved parent. You can call them on 0345 123 2304.
Take good care and keep reaching out,
Seaneen