Im finding it really hard at the moment cause of so many things I love and miss my husband so much but I lost him a long time before he died and finding it difficult to corp with he was very dismissal of me made me feel so worthless i cut everyone off cause he didn’t like me talking to anyone or he was very rude to me infront of people I don’t know what made him choose things over me i always stood by him cause i thourt he would charge didn’t think the pain could get worse but its getting to the point i don’t want to be here anymore i feel worthless if my husband couldn’t love me after 29 years why would anyone else
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I’m sorry for your loss. And I’m sorry you feel so worthless. You’re not.
None of us are.
You don’t say what caused your husbands death, and you don’t have to if you dont want to.
I’m sorry you feel he turned against you.
On this site you can say whatever you like. No one will judge, but we will all listen and offer our support.
Sending you love and hugs x
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Hi Summerose, Sorry to read you are feeling so bad, like Liro says, you are certainly not worthless. You are a special and unique person, just like the rest of us. I hope you feel valued and loved here. It has been a really big support to me. Xx
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He got a infection that turned into umonia but he had a problem with pills so didn’t see it i begged him time after time to stop taking them cause he was a different man very nasty and rude and always walked out on me i was married and felt like a single mum made me feel like i wasn’t good enough people talk about people on drugs but they don’t understand how it effects the loved ones they live with and his family have never liked me and wanted to no our children i lost my family and friends because of how he treated me and them i no he was a good man when was clean so i stood by him but lost myself and didn’t no it till now i can’t find myself anymore just feel worthless and unloved
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Thank you im hoping so just feel so a lone so many emotions going through me head and all my mother in law says is get over it move on shea never been in our life’s
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I’m so sorry @Summerrose11
But it is obvious the drugs changed him.
It was not your fault and I’m so sorry you had to go throught that
Please believe you are not worthless. You are a special person to have put up eith it for so long.
As for your mother-in-law, maybe you don’t need her in your life
Sending love and strength x
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Good morning @Summerrose11
I’m sorry for your loss 
I don’t want to sound like I’m bad mouthing your husband but please don’t take the way he treated you or the feelings you have around this as a reflection on to you. You are worthy of love and sound like a very loyal caring women. You don’t deserve to feel the way you do after all you have done.
You have a choice now, choose to love yourself and lead a life that will make you happy.
Reach out to friends and family, they’ll hopefully understand.
Use this platform as much as you like, we are all in this together.
I hope this makes sense xx
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Everyday I wake up trying to think positive about my day but I feel so lost feeling like im dragging a tun of bricks around its so hard to explain im happy but my body is feeling so tired and in pain
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