I lost my grandad in 2019 but haven’t seen him since I was 7 years old due to moving to a different country.
My nan (on the same side/were married their whole life) passed away Saturday…
I haven’t seen her since I was 8/9 years old as she was able to visit once. I knew on Thursday she was getting worse and then I got the news on Saturday that she passed away.
I don’t know how to cope with it all. I never got to say goodbye to them both, I never got to go to my granddad’s funeral or to see his grave. I don’t think I’ll be able to go to my Nan’s funeral either.
I don’t have the money, neither do my parents. I don’t even know if my mum can (their daughter). As much as it’s hard for me, I can’t imagine what she’s going through.
This is the first night not being at my partner’s place since I found out about it all. It’s nearly 4am and I can’t sleep…
I have things I have to do, life is always so busy but at the same time I need time to grieve. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know how to be okay. I don’t know how to tell people because I’m not good with the I’m sorry and sadness in their eyes as I’m awkward.
I don’t want to nearly cry in public or to actually cry in public. She’s died mother’s weekend. What if someone asks how my mother’s day was?
I lost my Nan and had to somehow tell my mum happy mother’s day but I know you’re struggling because you found out your mum died the day before…
Sorry, I’m a mess rn.