I lost my mum suddenly in May last year (she had COPD which caused a cardiac arrest, despite CPR and ambulance turning up straight away she never woke up).
I’ve coped as best as I can all these months, mainly to be there for my dad as he was struggling the most. I went months without crying, but over the past couple of weeks I’ve dreamt about her (one of them was quite a horrible dream) and I’ve been getting flashbacks of the day it all happened, and vivid memories of her, and I’ve cried quite a bit. I thought I was doing well but lately I’ve just been missing her so much, I just want a cuddle off her more than anything and to hear her voice.
I’m getting envious of people who still have their mum as well, I’m 25 and never thought I’d lose my mum this young, she won’t be there when I get married or buy my first home or be there if I ever have kids. My heart is breaking all over again.