So its nearly a year since my lovely dad died an i dont know how i feel its sumtimes like it just happened yesterday other times like ages ago an even now it can still feel like im been hit in the gut just thinking that hes gone an that he actually died an that ill never see him again i miss him so wish he was still here an i hope he knows that dont really know what else to say just really felt like i needed to post about him tonight i dont want him to be forgotten.
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He will never be forgotten and will always be with you.
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Absolutely hear you. My Mum died just over a year ago after a short and very fast cancer. 12 days from diagnosis to death. After the first few months of full on physical and emotional distress, I started to comeback to some kind of normality. This summer I felt somehow ok and it was just like I hadn’t seen her for a while - and a sort of unreal feeling like it hadn’t happened. Then this last few days all the grief came flooding back. I’ve been being brave and just getting on with things. But I don’t feel brave at the moment, just heart broken. I miss her so much.
Your Dad was/is loved by you and he loved you. That love won’t die. Speaking about him and your memories keep something of him and your relationship alive. Brilliant! You hold him in your heart.
It’s the speaking about Mum recently that’s made me feel the loss again. It’s hard, but necessary. And still early days I guess. I will keep dropping Mum in to conversations - painful but also lovely to keep her close in that way. Wishing you all the best x
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Hi,
Milestones can be tough, but take it at your own pace, this is your grief journey, you handle it in your own way. Just a thought 
, is there anything special you would like to do for the 1 year anniversary? Maybe visit a favourite place, or flowers on the grave, it might be an Idea to think how you would like to spend that day.