The feelings you are describing are only too familiar to me. I feel for your pain. I understand it is indescribable. Everything hurts. My beloved husband has been gone 7 mos and 7 days. He was cremated and since we don’t live anywhere near family I did not have a service. I have his ashes at home with me. My plan is for our ashes to be scattered together. So a lot of the difficulties you faced with funeral arrangements, I did not have to do. This week has been especially hard. No particular trigger, just missing him so much there are times I can hardly breathe. This site has been a good place to document what you are going through with others that truly understand. No judgment, no trite stupid statements that offer nothing. May we all find comfort in one another.
Peace and hugs, Karen
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