I’ve never done anything like this before but I feel I need to share my story as I have no clue how to navigate this grief.
In May my lovely Grandma passed away after illness and a stay in hospital, this absolutely devastated me as she was a huge part of my life and still a young Grandma at 65, seeing my grandad experience such grief also broke my heart.
Little did I know 3 months later, still processing losing my grandma, I would know exactly how he felt, and lose the person who was my rock during this time, on 18th Aug, I woke up on a Sunday morning to walk into our living room and find my partner of 6 years unresponsive and not breathing on our sofa, panic set in and pretty much from that point like has been a blur and everyday seems to be a battle just to get through, his funeral has now been and gone and his ashes are now back home with me, I still feel a huge emptiness and see other people around me moving on with life while I’m stuck in the same place feeling like my world has ended, I even feel angry at others for getting on with life, I have no clue how to navigate and get through this grief, it is a pain I have never felt before.
Apologies it may sound rambling but I needed to get stuff out.
Hi Beth
We are all going through this never ending nightmare. We do know what you are feeling, and two in the space of three months is more than really horrendous. I can say nothing which will ease your pain other than too keep coming here and reading other peoples stories as I do. You are not alone. x
Hi @Bethie , In those early days it’s almost impossible to see a way through life any more, all we can do is hang on, learning to cope with the tears and aching heart, we all know what it’s like. You cant take advice, you are not yet ready. But sooner or later (sooner I hope) you begin to see the shoots of your new life start appearing, and you start to move forward. It’s a slow journey, dont expect to wake one morning and it is all sorted. Hang on as best you can, lean on your friends, and gather hugs. Try to be as positive and optimistic as you are able.
It’s been 2 1/2 years for me, and my life is worthwhile again, but I have sad and tearful moments still ( just now for instance.)
Oh bless you, thank you, I’ve been reading some stories of others and they have moved me, it’s lovely to see so many lovely people who share similar heartbreak come together and share their experiences.