My mum was living with us for a number of years due to ill health and was diagnosed with cancer and passed away last year. I was a single child and lived with my mum and my family was her and my grandparents (on her side) .
I’ve found the whole situation very difficult and had some general counselling seemed to help but lately now every day I find myself looking back at my happy memories and feeling extremely sad and upset. Have my own family now but I can’t help thinking I am the only one left from my own actual family which makes me very sad. My grandparents passed away in 1997 and 2005 and I still miss them very much and would give anything to see them all once last time.
Even though I got to try and prepare for my mum dying and say the things I wanted , I was never really prepared for the effect it would have on me. I told her I would miss her and she told me that she would miss me to. This particular conversation haunts me most days.
Even as a write this I am crying. Knowing I’ll never see her again is very painful.