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Losing a partner
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Hello!
I am new to this forum. Have been recommended to Sue Ryder a few times. Today has just been awful for me. Lost my husband almost of 40 years two years ago (June 2023) to bowel cancer. He fought it hard for two years going into remission at one point only for it to return only months later and decided it wasn’t leaving without him a 2nd time. Sepsis joined in as well 4 times and it was on the 4th along with his advancing cancer that it decided to take him 2 years ago.

Since then I thought I had been doing ok. The first year I was pretty ok-ish I think in the first year it is still sinking in that they have gone, but for some reason this year it has felt harder. Think for the fact that my son got married back in February this year and he wasn’t there. It was a lovely day but just that bit bittersweet without his dad there but then my daughter in law lost her mother to stomach cancer just last year and so they both didn’t have a parent present on their big day. I have a little granddaughter who I adore she starts school in August this year something my husband wanted to see but unfortunately cancer had other ideas there. I have just found out also that I will be a grandmother for the 2nd time at the end of this year. I look after my older sister too. She has mild learning difficulties and few mental health issues going on. She doesn’t stay with me but lives in sheltered accommodation not far from me- within walking distance. She has just come through a bowel cancer diagnosis too ironically this was picked up two months after my husband passed but she is progressing well and is getting better. She is just awaiting heart valve replacement surgery now this was picked up at one of her cancer check ups that she has an enlarged heart and a leaking valve.

Just sat and cried today which I find is a good thing because it feels like a release for me because at the beginning when my husband passed I found I couldn’t do it which I thought was very unusual but now it seems to come in little spurts and it does for me. I wish you all well.

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Hi @VIP2162

Thank you so much for sharing this with the community :blue_heart: I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support, but I just wanted to let you know that you have been heard and you are not alone.

Take good care,
Alex

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Vip on the tv there are collections for cancer , isn’t it about time for a cure there always saying if we would have caught it earlier they will never catch it earlier as we don’t no we have it. My partner passed from the horid disease. There is not a day she isn’t in my thoughts but I cry less often because I’m angry at losing her. I could se the weight coming off and when I confronted her she would say I’m at the doctors next week and will ask him and this went on and on they said it’s this that and all sorts had scans etc. cut it short she was not getting out and ended up in hospital, I was fuming with the hospital say she had the and that ( she died ) of tummy cancer. I don’t trust hospitals from that. God bless :pray: