No more tears to cry

Losing a partner
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Hi all. It’s now been almost two and a half years since I lost my beloved husband and I have cried every single day. I never knew it was possible to cry so much. There were times when I cried so much I couldn’t get my breath or times when I felt like I would throw up. I’d cry at the slightest thing. If someone looked at me the wrong way I’d just cry like a baby. If I’d had a pound for every year I shed I’d be a billionaire by now. And then, just a few weeks ago I found I couldn’t cry anymore and haven’t been able to since. The funny thing though is I feel much worse now. They say crying is cleansing, it releases endorphins. Now my mental state is even worse. I can’t cry and I can feel all this stress and tension inside me and there are times I feel I’ll either explode or have a heart attack. I’m probably coming across like a Drama Queen but that old saying “a good cry does you good” is so true. Is it possible I wonder to just run out of tears? I’m constantly crying inside but unable to release that emotion. Love and hugs to all.

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Hello @Sakinah,

I’m so sorry to hear about the loss of your husband. It sounds as though things are very tough at the moment and you are struggling with your mental state, Please know that this is normal and understandable, and you’re not acting like a Drama Queen.

I’m glad that you’ve been able to share how you are feeling here and I hope that you find the community a good source of support. Everyone here has experienced the loss of a loved one and will understand some of what you are going through.

I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support, but I wanted to share a few Sue Ryder resources with you that may help you right now.

Take care - keep reaching out,

Alex

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