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Losing a child
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It was my son’s birthday this week.

We would have been celebrating his 37 years of life. Somehow, I increasingly feel his loss.
There hasn’t been even one easier day in the last few months.

I know time is supposed to bring acceptance but the missing part of me can never be replaced. It hurts so much to know his dreams, hopes and plans will never be realised. I cannot help but feel I didn’t do enough.

I know whilst he was in hospital I couldn’t be there and it is breaking me to know that his care, was not what he deserved or needed. If I had been allowed to be there, I would have been able to give the care, the staff failed to give him.

I know grief is not something only I feel and I don’t expect anyone to understand, Today has been a bad day. Maybe tomorrow will be better… maybe!!

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Hi Beth, I can feel your pain at the loss of your son. 37 is so young and as you say all his dreams, hopes and plans have gone with him to a better place. Grief is hard and there is no understanding how it will affect each of us but all celebrations are hard days and I hope tomorrow will be a better day for you. Look after yourself and take care. I am sending you big hugs and blessings. S xx

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Hi , I do not have any children but i lost my mum a few months ago and we were really close like best friends .

I can understand if you feel lost because i feel lost with out my mum i have been told by people that it gets easier with time but feeling angry is really hard to deal with the only advice i can give and i really do hope this helps is to remember you loved your son and i’m sure he loved you . Try to focus on good memories or happier times and look after yourself .
When i feel really angry i put music on loudly and sing along ( even though my singing is really bad ! ) it helps me a bit .

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Thank you for your kindness and the big hug. x

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Thank you Catoline.

I do understand your anger. Its hard to explain ferlings to other people but anger, does sit high on tbe list.

One day at a time is all we can ever manage and hope that each new day brings strength.

Thank you and bless you for your thoughtfulness and honesty.

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Hi Beth I lost my daughter in October 21 she will be 37 in August my heart breaks more each day with out her, I want to cruel up in a ball and stay there, but I have my granddaughters living with me now, I adore and love them, but no one can replace my Amy my only child :disappointed_relieved: sending you hugs xx

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As a mother not being able to be there to do what mothers do is what’s hurting us so much. I have had wonderful support from compassionate friends. People who have had the same loss . Sending love & prayers :smiling_face_with_three_hearts:

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Thank you for your kindness.

I don’t know why, but this last week has been so tough. I just seem to cry uncontrollably, it doesn’t make any sense at all, but grief doesn’t make any sense, in par, because it is unique to each one of us… an indescribable intrusion we never asked for. but have to accept a d deal with.
No specific reason for feing so low this week, and I know I am not alone, so to all of the parents who are grieving the loss of their child no matter their age, let’s keep going as an act of respect for them and the wonderful privilege of being blessed to have each and every one in our life.

Thank you to all those who so kindly offer words of comfort and support. x

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