15 months since the unexpected death of my soul mate.seems like yesterday.
One minute I’m getting on with life. Planning trips. The next I’m lonely and lost. I have great support around me and I know I’m lucky but will I live like this forever? My husband was the backbone of our family. I know I can’t follow in his footsteps. I know I’m not good enough.
Most of the time I feel like an imposter!
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I am so sorry for your loss. My angel also lost his life so suddenly and unexpectedly and I feel the same, 9 months in, he was my rock, my everything and I am now totally lost and hopeless without him. Trying to do what he did is a huge challenge but I have no choice but to keep trying with the hope that one day I will be able to manage maybe not as well as he did but I would settle just to get by.
I believe we sometimes are more capable than we give ourselves credit for.
Please don’t be discouraged & be kind to yourself.
Take care x
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Aw im nearly 14 months into this journey and its so hard isnt it ? In many ways it feels like it gets harder as reality hits ! And i feel the same - like im not good enough too. Life has changed so very much now hasnt it ? I dont even recognise my life as it is now to how it was 14 months ago . Ive made some new friends and i think thats the way to go tbh as we re - form our life but still there are days when you go right back to your old life with sadness and wishing it was back. Xx
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Yeh thats so true. We must be kind to ourselves mustnt we ? Its so hard this road and im just like @JackieJ im ok one day and totally lost on others 
i had a bloody meltdown today just because i had to do one of my husband jobs ! I did actually scream out loud and actually it helped release that bloody pain in your heart which can be so overwhelming … i think they should do compulsory boxing matches like in the advert for us bereaved xx
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That’s a great idea, boxing helps release anger, pain and all other emotions.
I must say I’ve learned quite a lot in the past 9 months having to deal with what my angel used to do - so stressful and overwhelming but I did it somehow.
Hope you have a peaceful day today 
xx
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Yeh … be good wouldnt it. I have learned a lot too but some days it just gets to you doesnt it … having to do something they did … i was having a bad morning anyway … its so tough some days - i miss him so much - he was my rock and my protector xx
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You too. This group helps me to realise I’m not the only one to feel this way
Take care fellow traveller on this journey we’re on x
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Someday okay someday just sucks!
I miss him too 24/7 he was my rock too and I always felt safe around him - now I am so lost and all over the place 
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Take care
Sending hugs X
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I know exactly what you mean ! My husband was my rock too … trusted him completely with my feelings ! We are so lost without that love aren’t we xx
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Yes we are, lost without our guardian angels
Let us stay strong & carry on with our beloved in our hearts and minds x
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