It’s almost here the Earth has nearly completed a whole orbit of the sun without your physical presence and my world feels black, white and shades of grey. My happy moments are tinged and spoilt by my grief.
My body around certain times (my birthday/her birthday/mother’s day/Christmas and now the one year anniversary) it’s like my body feels it more, like I’m exhausted and every other though is of you and I’m sad and more teary and that I’m right back at day one.
Watching you slip away. Watching the suffering end my heart breaking as your chest stopped moving. There hasn’t been a single day when I haven’t missed you but I’ve survived almost a year without you and I didn’t know that would be possible at first I felt like the world stood still when you died. And it still doesn’t feel real at times.
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