Well, it’s now coming upto a year since my beautiful mum only 72 suddenly fell ill and went into hospital. I can’t believe the changes to our whole family since that day. At times I feel overwhelmed with grief but in next breath due to my new full time caring responsibility for my dad another part of me takes over. Gosh I miss my mum so so much and it’s so so hard, I feel so much I can’t off load that to my own family (I’m an only one) so only have my own 3 teenage children and my husband and my grief stricken dad who now lives with me following mums death.
I’m finding news so hard to listen to as well at the moment, everting revolves around Covid understandably, however my gut feels with emotions to all that have lost loved ones during the pandemic, who endured the same restrictions to be with them at the most critical time needed. I Coahuila only see my mum through a window for the 2 weeks she was unwell, and we all expected her to have her operation and come through to continue to live her life… and it didn’t happen. So now life is different, my mums gone, I have to be her and me for my dad to ensure he’s safe we’ll and happy, I’ve had to sell their house, build an annex etc… all around being a mum of 3 teenagers and hold down a job! When does all this get a bit easier?