I lost my sister a week ago. She was 32 years old and younger than me. She did have some health problems but her death was sudden after two major strokes. We lost our mother twelve years ago and have an absent father so we’ve basically just had eachother for years and now she’s gone leaving behind 2 young children. Me being her next of kin I’m left to make all the arrangements and sort all of her affairs and I’m finding it all very overwhelming as I was there with her every minute through her week in hospital as well as having my two children and helping to care for her two children. I’m feeling shock, anger, heartbroken, overwhelmed and exhausted. Although she was younger, she took care of me more than me her and she helped me with things when life would get ontop of me due to alot of my own personal struggles and I’m just lost without her I have no clue what I’m doing I’m trying to support the younger children but I’m also struggling with my own grief and all of her affairs are so disorganised and her house is filled with years of clutter and hoarding. I’m trying to organise her funeral to be as nice and personal as possible for her children but I’m struggling with it and the hefty bill as she didn’t have any plans or savings. I just want to run away and hide and pretend like it’s not happening how does it get easier?
@Kymgk I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my sister when she was 29 and it was an event that changed my life forever. I have since very sadly lost my Dad in Dec past and my mum just 4 weeks ago. There is only me now i do have a very supportive hubby but that feeling of being alone is so overwhelming. You are in the very early stages of grieving and are probably still trying to process everything that has happened. Please allow yourself time to do that , Im sure thay what ever you decide for the service will be perfect for your sister. If you want to talk more please message me . Take care of you
Aww how awful for you losing so many close 
it’s definitely a feeling of being left alone but at the same time I’m not alone as I have her two kids and my own two as well as a supportive partner but it feels like she was the last one left who knew me most and had been through all my struggles with me and we were the only ones with memories of our mum and grandparents so it’s only me left to tell all the kids about them all. I suppose it always gets easier it’s just this time it just hit me harder with being the oldest and with her kids being the type who really need their mum, they were such a close family unit it just feels so unfair. I’m so sorry for your huge loss too life can be so cruel at times 
Life can be very cruel and its so hardto understand and make any sense of. Im so sorry for you losing your sister who was obviously a immense support to you. I lost my husband 4 weeks ago today in sudden circumstances and i as you feel very over whelmed with it all and trying to sort out how im going to mange financially. There are bereavement grants via DWP if you look online. 