I totally agree @roni52
I’m nearly 5 months now and I thought I wasn’t too bad.
But the last few weeks I too feel as if I’m going backwards. This rollercoaster is an incessant ride of highs and lows. A few weeks ago I felt as if I was near the top. Now nearer the bottom.
I am coping, people think I’m doing well but the tears still come and the missing is getting harder.
I hope it’s just a dip and I start going up again soon
But I will keep going, there really is no choice now.