Pain & tears after dad has gone

Phew… trying to remain calm. Feeling so upset tonight. Had dad’s cremation last Thursday and now3 days later I’m feeling so crap. I was making dinner earlier and thought, oh my god I must call dad not spoken to him for a while now. Then I realised …no…. I can’t do that, as he’s gone. I could barely carry on cooking. It’s so horrible, miss my pops so much :candle::dove::broken_heart: xx

Hello
My dad’s cremation was last Tuesday. I was going to call him this evening to remind him West Ham are playing Chelsea tomorrow night. He’d have laughed and said something like well there’s no point watching that then. Then I realised and started to cry. Earlier I filled the bird feeder and wanted to tell him the magpies had got at the seeds. I don’t know when we’ll feel safer with our memories, but I hope we will. I hope this is a safe place to say these things.