Same here Flints. It’s an open weekend at our caravan park and it’s not going to be the same without Sylvia. I’m only going because my son and his family are coming with me. I’ve been there alone, but it’s their first time since she died. It’s going to be very emotional but it’s definitely what she would of wanted
I am so sad trying to accept John has left me alone. I try to go on but am constantly reminded he’s not here. I don’t know if i am using his death to become lazy. I can’t be bothered to dust or hoover or tidy up. I can’t even be bothered to shower it takes so much energy. My garden is full of dead stems and weeds. Some of the perennials are coming through but they don t help. Half the time i hide in bed hoping the day will go quickly. One of the things that constantly annoys me is that my star sign is Cancer. Why can’t this horrible disease that took John be called a different star sign? Don’t know why they chose to call it Cancer anyway . I can never get away from the word. Xxx
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Sending my love to you, I hope you get through the day alright, I know you will be tearful.
Mark was an holiday park manager in Bamburgh, it was a lovely park, I’m yet to visit without him, I know it will be so emotional. xx
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I know how you are feeling, its a constant battle to keep going. My garden is a mess. there are panels blown off the greenhouse, the table has been broken by the wind and is lying on the grass, but it all seems so pointless now, I keep asking myself ‘what is the point?’ I used to love the house and garden, but the void from Mark leaving, is so great, its unbearable.
Sending you my love xx
Beautiful place. The last place in the UK we got to visit.
Hope you feel better soon, is it the medication making you sick? xx
Yes, absolutely beautiful xx
I will be okay, Poppet. How are you? xx
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I’m so sorry. Life does seem so unfair. Only 7 weeks until my husband suddenly died on a Saturday, a year ago. He would be getting his boat ready for summer now, as he did last year. He never got his first sail as he died on the morning he was due to go out. Saturdays are the worst for me. It’s so lonely. I have no family nearby. I may have to move to be nearer to them so am painting kitchen walls today to freshen them up a bit. First time I’ve done any painting since before he died so that is making me cry. There are so many difficult first times. No one to make me a cup of tea or some lunch. Its the little things that get to you isn’t it. Sending love to all who are going through this. xx
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Your right life is so unfair as everyone on here knows it is so hard to motivate yourself into doing things nothing seems worth it anymore every thing that i loved about my life is gone all i seem to be left with is an endless void years of loneliness Been six months now not getting any better hugs to all x
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Thank you xx
Sending you my love xx
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Thank you xx
Bamburgh is a beautiful part of the country. Only an hour from me. I’m at the caravan right now. Trying to be brave for my granddaughter
My husband’s star sign was cancer also.
Thats what he died of.
Im alright, lost my motivation to do anything, just spend my days doing nothing and just watch tv all day in bed xx
When we were in the army we would go camping whenever we could, I used to hate but went, after years of a tent I said if he wanted to carry on then we buy a caravan, which we did, I found one when he was away in Canada.
We sold it once the kids grew up and had their own lives.
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Are you feeling better today x
No not last night was not nice 7 acid reflexes I will be ok.
I am worse after last night the acid reflux horrible