Hiya. It is hard my wife passed just over 6 months ago .it is not getting better. It is getting worse. Xx
I have just finished a bereavement course and am disappointed nothing has changed since the start. I still feel totally lost can’t see the point in anything. The feeling of lonliness is still the same. I can’t believe John has left me for good
Is it worth considering getting a dog.for company? Nothing gives me any happiness because i am so miserable and always look on the black side. This has been going on for 6months now .but i still have John’s pillow on the bed and all his clothes and belongings. I just can’t manage without him. Hope you are all coping better. Xxx
Im glad you had a good sleep, today has not been good for me, the mechanic rang me this morning and I mentioned Mark’s name and started crying and couldn’t stop for ages.
Im just waiting now to pick up my car.
Hope you are ok today xxx
I don’t think any amount of counselling we have is going to change the fact that our loved one’s are not coming back to us.
I just can’t get past the hurt and anger and didn’t have a chance to get used to Mark having cancer and didn’t get to say goodbye to him as he went so suddenly that Saturday night xx
I’ve just had a most embarrassing experience in tesco looking at meals for one which is difficult as i’m never hungry since Chris died , i’ve lost so much weight, and i started to cry i had to wander round until i controlled myself I didn’t want to go to check out like that. It just made me realise how miserable my life has become without him no one to cook for or enjoy a meal with horrible lonely existence 
Yewtree i’ve got two dogs they are company and you do get to talk to other dog walkers but they are a tie can’t leave them for longer than four hours. Luckily my daughter has them if i’m going to be out for longer x
I do know how you feel, I went to Tesco sunday morning, by the everyone I knew asking me how I am, cried my eyes out, I got to the car and sat in it and bawled my eyes out. This morning the mechanic rang me and just the mention of Mark started me off again.
Ive gone downhill these past couple of days.
Its 5 months on 23rd and I feel like I’m getting worse not better.
I just miss him so much, I want to be with him xxx
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How you doing why say his name .that must of hurt xx…still out shopping getting knackered now xxcx
I think we all know how you feel, its a bloody nightmare. Im struggling all the time, thats all we seem to do! So , if this is all we are capable of at present, then we just got to do it. I want to be with my Trace every second and it is hell not being able to do what I want. I have no words left tbh. Take care x
Yes i know that feeling have it all the time have you thought about going to Gp i had to because I couldn’t eat anything kept being sick i cried all the way through the appointment but he was very nice said i was suffering from acute anxiety he gave me some antidepressants which have stopped the sickness and i can eat a bit more and sleep better it hasn’t really helped with my depression but that’s because I’m grieving as you are. Xx
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Yes I have been to the doctors and given antidepressants, they have helped me sleep and eat but thats it. To be honest the only thing that can help is the one thing I can’t have xx
I came of my antidepressants. I feel better, still not good but a bit better xx
They are not helping but like you say its not depression xx
@poppit It is call being heartbroken. Hope u get better soon mate
I’ve been trying to do some gardening but it hasn’t helped .John hasn’t been out with my cup of tea yet. Why is it that the flowers and nice days make me feel worse not better. I’m really sick of the quietness. If i put music on it’s nearly all sad sixties songs i used.to love. Roy Orbison and Gene Pitney were my favourites. I don’t want to remember all the good times at the night clubs because it all makes me even more un happy now xxx I wish love and understanding to everyone trying to come through this total devastation xxx
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The first sunny days up here made me feel worse too because those were the days where we would go out and do stuff together. Just us two mostly. It’s impossible to replace that companionship and love. That’s why I keep finding things to do.
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Sly i feel the same i hate the light nights as Chris and i would be out walking the dogs together now i watch other couples walking by arm in arm and it makes me feel envious and sad x
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I am freaking out i miss my wife maria. ,i need her xxx
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I thought I was over the worst until the light nights and decent weather. But it just reminded me that Sylvia was still alive and we were doing stuff together this time last year. I’m coming up to the first anniversary of when it all went pear shaped and I know it’s going to be very difficult to deal with.